It's been awhile.....

So Valentines Day is dumb. Why can't you tell the person you love you love them everyday, or bring them gifts every day???? hmm..
Okay that was random, but seriously. So, what's new with me? NOTHING. I dropped Chemistry; I guess a dropped class looks better than a failed class.....let's hope.
I have a new obsession with M&Ms.. I eat them all the time. They are delicious.
Oh my goodness! I went to buy pens today. OK PENS! So I go into Staples with $5. I COULD BARELY AFFORD PENS. I'm not shitting with you. I had to get some cheap ones for 3.99. That's freaking ridiculous. Wow, I'm mad about it.
Another thing I'm angry about (and I don't care who sees it).. is the drill team. Well, the seniors on the drill team. They keep saying how happy they are it's over. ARE YOU KIDDING ME? What the hell.. appreciate the time you had because you don't get it back. They also don't appreciate how amazing they did and who got them there.... uuugh.
So, I left nutrition tonight and just can't stop thinking about how ridiculous society's obsession with weight is. Not a day goes by that I don't think about being skinnier and what I can do to get there and I'm not shitting you. It's terrible and I'm guessing I'm not the only one like this.. I'm among many. It's not right.. we should all feel beautiful in our skin and what God gave us. We should be able to eat whatever we want whenever we want. JUST WORK OUT. But if you're like me and read every magazine on the shelves, it makes it hard to not wanna look like those woman. They are twigs. I could break up them...and yet I wish I was skinnier all the time and I'm not even overweight. Pathetic.
I'm being really pessimistic tonight I just realized. It's all because boys are stupid and ruin my life and make me sad. I just wanna be alone and enjoy the one life I get without a freaking broken hear. I wanna be happy all the freaking time. I'm sick of being used and not appreciated for the person I am. I try to be the best person I can be.. and if you don't like it. &*$@ off and stop texting me out of the blue CAUSE YOUR BORED. Every single time you just break my heart more...happy? uuugh. I don't even think anyone is reading this but if you are thanks for letting me vent.

ok I'm going to go watch american idol and quit my bitching.

ps: I LOVE MY NEPHEW. without him, I wouldn't of smiled much lately.

peace&love