My Heroes- the ones who keep me going...

♥God, for opening my eyes and showing me through everyday struggle the real meaning of life and the reason to be the greatest person I can be at all times. For teaching me to be thankful for all that I have. Life can end in a second.
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♥My beautiful mama, for her courage, her integrity, and the desire to push through anything and fight for what she believes in. For not giving up, when she thought things couldn't get any worse. Sticking out college and all the hardships that come along with it, all the help others with their problems. And also, for always telling it like it is. :)
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♥My sister, for keeping her head up in rough times. For showing me what the important things in life actually are and for staying strong at all times. For knocking sense into me when I need it and telling the truth, no matter what.
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♥My 3 parents- For raising me to have respect for others no matter what. And raising me to have the courage to fight for what I believe in. For teaching me not to give up on what I want, and to strive for excellence.
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♥My papa, for his drive throughout his life, even when he knew it wasn't gonna last much longer , and making me see the reason for life. I miss you everyday. I'll never forget to "swim with a buddy". :)
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♥My Aunt Margie, for remaining happy and optimistic down the last second even when she knew she lost her battle with cancer. I miss you and our family holidays together. It won't ever be the same.
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♥MY SOLDIER, MY BROTHER & ALL THE REST FIGHTING FOR US. May God be with them and their families every single day.
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♥Aimee Young, for all the work she puts into the remembrance of the Holocaust, the lives she changes in her classroom, and standing up for what she believes in.
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♥Doctors, nurses, firemen, military members, parents, teachers, social workers, entrepeneurs, charity workers, and all those making any kind of living to support themselves and their families.

It's gorgeous outside.....finally :)

It's so beautiful outside today :) I LOVE it. Good weather seriously puts me in a better mood, and for a day I forget all the bullshit. I layed out today.. and got pretty tan. SCORE!
It's a Friday night and there is nothing to do in this town. I'm going to the Loudonville softball game in town, but I mean after............... there's nothing=boring.
I'm staying at the parents this wknd to "house/dog sit" while they are in PA. I love it here.
My sister and I are in the middle of planning a suprise birthday party for my dads 50th birthday! I'm so excited. There are so many people coming.. he will love it. I love doing things like this for people. Well actually, I just love throwing get togethers.... but it's always a bonus when it will make someone's day in the process :) I can't believe my dad is turning 50. I'll be 20 this year............INSANE.
So in college, I take out loans obviously because I'm poor. Well every quarter I get the money to myself that I didn't use for school. I thought it was going to be here on the 23rd, so I got to the mailbox expecting money to last me until I start at pizza hut in May and guess what? NO MONEY. Ugh, I was instantly upset because that was all I'll have until I start my job. So, I call my school and ask when the loan refunds are mailed out and they say MAY 1ST! Oh my lanta..... so I have 20 dollars to last me until about the 3rd when I get the mail..............wish me luck on getting to college.
I doubt anyone is even reading this because NOONE blogs anymore......
COME ON PEOPLE!

Anyways.. I need to be outside. It's calling me.


-Peace.

No purpose..

soo.. I haven't blogged in a while, and I'm being told too. I don't blog very much because I never feel like I have anything good to say. My life consists of work and school.. and the occasional friend and family time :). I try to keep busy.. it keeps my mind off of things you know? I've been pretty ill these last two weeks. I don't even know what happened to the last two weeks actually, cause I slept them all away, ha. Not good... but I haven't been that sick in soo long. Then I lost my voice for a couple days, so I couldn't go to work. Mama came to the rescue and invited me to stay with her so I didn't get Kal'el sick. In the process, I got her sick. :( She now has mono and broncitis. boo! I'm really bored. Just sitting here appreciating the sunshine. I love the sun. However, today it's incredibly misleading, because it's actually freezing balls outside.
I am going to Haley Engard's wedding reception around six. Then I have no idea what I'll do tonight. It's a Saturday night, and I have no plans. Figures. But I'm "dog/housesitting" for my parents right now anyway, and being here is nice. Its so calm here.. I just want to be outside. I wish it was warmer. I am blabbing on and on and this is exactly why I haven't blogged. I have nothing interesting to write about. Nothing has struck my fancy.
I had a job interview at Pizza Hut in Loudonville... so let's hope I get that job. I really need to make more money.. I have none.
I got to talk to Oscar last night :), which of course put me in a good mood. I miss him like you can't even imagine. It's insane.
OH. I know. I think I'm going to major in education. High School education. I really really want to teach holocaust, because that class changed my life. I'd like to do that for others. However, I can't JUST teach that class. And I hate literature and english (Sorry Aimee). I really like math... but algebra/holocaust teacher???? mm, I don't think that fits. I don't know what I'll do, but I need to figure it out and get a move on. I want a CAREER already!
Well, I think I may take a nap :) yesssss.

thankyou if you actually took the time to sit through this mumbo jumbo.

ciao.
peace and love
-kirstie

Untitled...

When was the last time I blogged? I don't remember.
My car broke down. Isn't that fantastic..? Since I have school and work.. and friends? There are parties this wknd, let's hope for the best....
(Never realized how much I love driving and that independence to go wherever, whenever.)
So I have one more final to take tomorrow.. and I'm finished :) SPRING BREEEAK. I hope the weather stays gorgeous. I want to be outside. I don't belong in Ohio.. I can feel it in my bones.
So.. I'm losing weight. But, I feel like its only in my legs?? I don't know..whatever it's something so I shouldn't complain.
Softball season is coming. I really want to go to alot of the games.. But I'm scared. I really think I'll miss it alot, and lose it. Guess it won't last forever right? I just want to be on that field....
Kal'el is climbing all over me right now and really making this blogging thing difficult. When I tell him to move, he laughs. He's such a good kid. He's lucky I love love love him.
My sister and Scott are watching the punisher? then we are watching American Idol from tonight.. :) I'm ecstatic. I'm really rooting for the girl with the red hair, she's amazing and the guy that can scream his ass off. Those are my two top picks :) The guy is hot too.. can you say bonus?
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I miss my friends.. :) Esp. Oscar.............................. Wish I had money or a rich grandma or something.

Alright, I have nothing to say.
I love the weather :)
I love sunshine.

-ciao

I'm exhausted.

I wanna start out by saying I can't stand Loudonville anymore and the loud mouthed people that are in it. I had plans to attend one of my best friends birthday party Friday night, but beforehand Byron and I were going out to dinner with some friends. On the way, Byron gets these phone calls and texts from people who are saying, "Don't go to that party, cops are coming out there", "it's going to get busted, 'just so you know'". Then he proceeds to tell me about how one of his (loud mouthed) teachers says, "I better not hear about you being out there this wknd". Then one of the coaches at Loudonville said that he was GOING TO CALL THE POLICE.
HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAH YEA OK.
I'm really sorry if I'm offending anyone, but really?! How the hell old are you people? You didn't party in high school? Tell me you didn't and I'll laugh my ass off right in your face. I remember my sister being in high school and having like 50 people from HIGHSCHOOL at the parties they had, and noone seemed to care as much. (In words of step brothers: WHAT THE F*** HAPPENED?!) They never got caught cause people were mature. The party was planned THURSDAY and the world knew about it FRIDAY. PATHETIC. Grow up.. even the adults. If you spent half the time educating the students as you do trying to bring them down and get them in trouble, then perhaps Loudonville High School would be a little more enjoyable. I didn't mean to direct that just at teachers; because honestly, how'd they find out? THE STUDENTS. People really need to learn to keep their mouths shut.
PS: No cops showed up. and most of the people there were out of high school, thank God. So it was kind of like a reunion and we had a blast :). SO SUCK IT.
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Okee, I showed mi madre how to blog today.. so my 4 readers I have should keep up with her blog. She's a pretty funny lady.
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Saturday, I slept all day with Byron (don't fret.. we're only "friends") Then I went to work. Afterwards, I went into Loudonville to pick up Byron.. but he ended up going to Ashland. So, I went and hung out with Derrick, got some mickey dees and went out to his house. THEN after waiting (like usual), I went and picked up Byron and came to my house and went to bed. Then today (Sunday), we went and got McDonalds (AGAIN) (NOTE TO SELF: quit it! quit eating fast food!). After that, I took him home and went to see my mama and diod. I'm now at home, babysitting the best little person in the whole entire world :) and watching wizards of waverly place haha.
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I miss my friends. I miss Dani. I miss Jordan. I miss Halli. Those are the only three girls I've really kept in touch with since high school and I love them. However; they all have boyfriends.. so the majority of their time is spent with them which =less time for Kirstie. I mean, I understand. I did it too... but it freaking sucks now and I get pissed off about it constantly. Whatever.
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I'm sleepy.. I hope Kal'el falls asleep soon, so I can :)

Miss you Oscar.
-I'm out.

"In a way, I need a change from this burnout scene....

...another time, another town another everything."
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Ah. What a weird wknd I have. What started out as, "ugh, I need plans".. turned into a wknd I'll never forget; and one that brought my heart to relaxation.
Friday, I went to Canton with Katie, a new friend from work (who lives two streets away;crazy). We partied a little.. but I knew noone, so it wasn't too exciting. We came home around 1 am Fri night, and I went to Loudonville to pick up Byron??? Yea, you read that right. AND; we had an amazing wknd, as FRIENDS. Friends! And best ones at that. We had a great time together.... this may be the start of something beautiful. So its Sunday night at 11:33, and I just got home from taking him back to his house. It was pleasant for two days with him, we snuggled up.. and we didn't fight. So peaceful. :) For the first time in months, I feel 100% at ease. My mind isn't racing 45738049574 miles an hour. I'm just perfectly content.
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So, Scott installed my new CD player today. He got done putting it in, and what do you know? My piece of shit car wouldn't start. He comes inside and says, "so I have good news and bad news; your CD player is working, but you're car died". I just sat there, hahahaah. I just looked at him with this blank stare; I'm sure you know the one. Like seriously?? Nothing else can go wrong with that thing. But anyways, we jumped that shit, so she's working top notch again. (Well; to her full potential, which isn't much, hahah)
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I have theee worst stomach ache. No joke... All I've eaten is soupy, and doughnuts today. (Good diet). I need to lose 10 pounds.. I dunno why I eat that crap.
Tues is the tournament game at Wooster High School.. I'm ecstatic. :) Pretty much just cause we're playing Hillsdale. Also, because our guys have been doing gooooood.
School- Mon, Tues, and Wed. I need to register this wk. I have no idea what to take. That's was the student success center is for though :) They pretty much tell you what to need to do.. I'd be lost otherwise.
...Well I don't have much else to say, but I thought I'd give an update.


-miss you oscarbaby :*( ............... man oh man.


-peace n love

my boy's growing up.

So I wake up today and realize... Kal'els not a baby anymore. He's a big boy now.. haha. He's going on two. HIS TERRIBLE TWOS. He's started talking, and runs like a mad man. He's so big now :(. I still love him like you can't even imagine. He's my boy. and the cutest freaking kid you'll EVER see. I love him. My sister needs to pop out another one.
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I am going out tonight with my friend Katie! It should be a good time. Then, hopefully I'm hanging out with Derrick tomorrow night. We'll see how shit works out. I know I have to work tomorrow... boooo.
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I am watching tivo american idol I missed this week. :) I love it.

Okay I obviously have nothing to talk about. Its been a dumb week.

Peace :)

2/23/09

Well; I honestly don't have much to blog about, but we'll give it a go.
My "OK" button and "0/next" button on my phone weren't working, so I took it to Verizon today to get all that fixed. I guess it needs a "software update", so that's what I'm doing as of now; sitting around.. waiting on this update they speak of.
Today, I woke up and went to work at 11. I got home at 2, and am going to the game vs clearfork tonight at like mmmmm 5:45? I'm pumped. I need to fill up my gas tank and its FREEZING. ugh I DESPISE WINTER!!!! It can suck it.
I just looked at the TV n for some reason it says, "TV will turn off soon".. I don't get it.
So, I have to write a speech by Wednesday..........and informative speech. I have no idea what to freaking do. I'll wait till Tuesday night. I work better when its last minute. BELIEVE IT OR NOT.
Well this is boring.. maybe I'll have more exciting news later...............? Let's hope for the best.

Peace

"I'm sick and tired of being.. sick and tired"

Even now I can smell your clothes

Freshly from the wash,

Still hot from the dryer.

Even now I can smell your skin

As I wrap you in a towel,

Lay you on the bed,

and try to love you

Even now I can feel your arms.

I can hear your songs.

And I always can find you again.

Even now I can feel your hand

Gently over mine,

With almost no weight at all.

Even now I can feel your eyes.

Watch me as I strum

Much too late at night.

Even now I can see you smile.

I can hear you hum.I can hear you sing.

And I always can find you again.

Even in the dark of night.

Even in the lowest light.

Even as the world outside is spinning, And spinning

Even now I can feel your hair

Blow across my cheek

As we sit in one of two chairs.

Even now I can feel you face

Resting on my chest,

Wrestling for sleep and failing at it.

Even now I can see you sleep.

I can see you dream.I can see you fly.

And I always can find you again.

And I always can find you again.

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Is it always going to be this hard? Getting over your first.. the one you thought you'd love forever and always. The one you thought you'd marry. Will he always be in the back of my mind.. will I always have nights where I just cry and cry cause I can't protect him or help him or hold him when things are bad anymore. He won't listen.. to anyone. I thought we'd be each others number ones for life... but his number one became something utterly discusting and pathetic.. and now I sit. and pray to God, he'll realize how much I love him soon before all my patience and desire goes away. I just want to help him.....................but I can't be his "friend".. its too hard falling in love with someone all over again.. when they aren't feeling the same cause they are too high to fucking get it.

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I know I know, you're probably thinking "get over it kirstie". But I don't care anymore. I can't hide behind a wall forever. And I don't care what anyone thinks of me. I lost my love and my best friend. I don't even know who to talk to about anything in my life. God....

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Enoughs enough. Today was shitty......... apparently. I work with catty bitches. LIKE HIGHSCHOOL. I like two people I work with and ones the freaking manager.

This girl literally got pissed tonight because I am the "new girl" and I was bussing tables faster then her. GET OVER IT, and move your ass. Seriously what the f*ck.

I am new, therefore I've been more than nice to everyone and I worked really hard tonight cause we were really busy. Bruce (our manager) kept stopping me and saying "seriously Kirstie you're doing very good.. keep it up".. then this BITCH decides to run her mouth about how I'm bussing all the tables. DOn't complain IDIOT.. YOU BARELY DID SHIT. ugh.. wow. Then when I asked her to grab the next few she says, "eh I don't really feel like it".. EH OK.

I'm seriously nice to everyone I work with and I'm really friendly with everyone.. so whats the reason to talk shit about someone YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW.. really????

wooow.. can you tell how my days been????

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I'm "dogsitting" for my rents this wknd while their in the burgh doing taxes shit. I miss them. They know how to fix everything. :( So anyways, I come home from work tonight ready to sit down and do hw... and what do you know? I DON'T GET IT. Whatever........

I need to quit complaining. Things are coming around for me.. I'm doing good in school (now that chem is out of the freakin way), I have a job where at least my managers like me, and I have the greatest friends. So what the hells my problem???

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I need Oscar at times like these.......................

Well if you actually sat through all this bitching.. thanks. and congrats: you know my boring life.

ciao

te amo muchisimo oscar de jesus melo sandoval.

Bad start to a "good" morning.....

So I woke up this morning ready to get a move on. I was meeting a friend from work to go workout, then get cold stone (weird combo I know). So I get up, pull my hair back, put on a sweatshirt and shoes, and walk out the door.
I stop outside for a second to admire the snowfall and how lucky we are to live in Ohio and this kind of weather :) ...............................................NOOOOOOOT! FFFF that.
Anyways, I go to open my car door, and WHAT DO YOU KNOW?? It didn't open. IT DIDN'T OPEN. Oh my goodness I locked my keys in my car. I ALWAYS ALWAYS double check.. so I don't know WHAT I was thinking last night when I came home. Daaaamn. Oh and ps: I have no spare key to my piece of shit car. Amazing. So here I am, sitting and waiting on the brother in law to get home and make it all better (cross your fingers). UUUGH. I was really proud of myself for waking up and getting ready to go work out.. and here I am. I could still be sleeping still.. at 11:30..haha.
So I'm SO excited for the game tonight. Really! I think it's goign to be a good game. The boys are doing so so good, and honestly I really have noone to watch.. but I still love going. I need to get a plain white sweatshirt today.. except I only have 70? dollars to last me two wks. Grrreeat. Wish me luck on that.
I'm on facebook (what's new????) and OSCAR just messaged me. Therefore, I've forgotten about my keys and I'm just thinking good thoughts because he makes me happy. I DO NOT think people understand how much I miss him. :( I'll be okaaaay.
I have a smile on today.. Noone better ruin it :) (bad drivers will I just know it...)

Okay, Scott's on his way home to fix my problem.. cause I'm 12.

Peace&Love and I hope to see everyone tonight!! :]

So I have a headache, a bad one. It doesn't help that I'm listening to halo on fullblast either...... fun. So I think I'm just going to become a lesbian or something (just kiddin). But no, guys are assholes and unappreciative and disrespectful. Uugh.
I'm very excited for the basketball game tomorrow. WHITEOUT(everyone wear white). Being this excited may have something to do with the fact I did nothing today. Just maybe.. either way. Then on Saturday, I'm hanging out with Halli, Jordan, Chels, and maybe Dani! And I'm SO SO excited. I haven't seen them in SO SO long. Oh my goodness. Well, ok I've seen Dani.. but not the others. YAY! Downside of saturday?? I work! At 4:30, with the hostesses I haven't met yet. I've been training with Katie, therefore she's like my comfort zone and now I won't have her. boooo. Ah well, I know what I'm doing basically anyway.
My dvd player broke.. it my room. It just shit the bed. (sigh).. so now I don't know what I'm going to do. Hopefully my sister will order me a box soon so that I can just have tv in my bedroom. That'd be nice. She thinks I can't save $7 a month to pay her for it. Nice huh??
I've been working out all wk. I feel so good about it. However.. I don't think I've lost the desired weight that I want to. Esp since I just ate Taco Bell. Greeeeat.
Welp; that's what I'm going to go do....

Peace&Love

So, my sister is watching Quarentine, which I saw in the theatre. It's stupid, but whatever; I'm sitting through it for a second time.
School was alright tonight. I learned in FYE that I can't follow directions....special. I have to give a "informative speech" next Wed, in Speech class. Any ideas?? Please... haha, I honestly have to idea what to inform my class of for 5-7 minutes. We'll see.
I'm housesitting this wknd at my moms. Well; more like "dogsitting". Anyone wanna join me?? I'm definently going to the game Friday. I'm so excited. Its for the league champs?? I guess they beat us last time too, so it should be interesting.
Sidenote: I just looked up at the tv.. it looks discusting. Don't watch this movie.
I work tomorrow. sigh. My second day, so that should be thrilling. (Let's hope). I have to wear ALL black, like I'm going to a funeral; not very exciting.
So anyways; there is absolutely nothing new with me. I miss the Weiss' a whole bunch. =(.. Whatever, I need to learn to deal.

ps: I'm on my way to losing ten pounds.. seriously. Wish ME luck.

Peace&Love once again....



pss: I FREAKING MISS MY BEST FRIEND. someone buy me a trip to Mexico. I'll forever be thankful.

STUPID PEOPLE....

I hope this makes the news..haha.
I really really like to be open minded. But all this is becoming nonsense::::

I just saw a preview for the news. It said that people are starting to say the Facebook is violating there privacy. REALLY? Because, I'm pretty sure I use it and you post WHAT YOU WANT. You aren't made to post anything. If you don't like it, get the hell off of the internet?? Maybe?
I'm sick of hearing about how bad myspace and facebook are. I'm sick of hearing how people are getting murdered and what not cause of these site. NO, it's cause of jackasses who don't set their profiles to PRIVATE or they post exactly where they live or something. Crazy.
Myspace and Facebook both allow you to set your profiles to private. You can choose who you add and who will be able to look at your shit. So if you or your children are DUMB enough not to do that...or to add people you don't know...then that's you and their own problem.
People really need to stop focusing on things that don't matter, like websites that CAN be controlled and hollywood and celebrities.
My brother is at war ok? I think you should focus a bit more on the important shit, rather then meaningless things that people are too stupid to get in the first place.

Here I am complaining again. But really, can't you research your shit before saying how bad something is. When it's not................

okay, love you

It's been awhile.....

So Valentines Day is dumb. Why can't you tell the person you love you love them everyday, or bring them gifts every day???? hmm..
Okay that was random, but seriously. So, what's new with me? NOTHING. I dropped Chemistry; I guess a dropped class looks better than a failed class.....let's hope.
I have a new obsession with M&Ms.. I eat them all the time. They are delicious.
Oh my goodness! I went to buy pens today. OK PENS! So I go into Staples with $5. I COULD BARELY AFFORD PENS. I'm not shitting with you. I had to get some cheap ones for 3.99. That's freaking ridiculous. Wow, I'm mad about it.
Another thing I'm angry about (and I don't care who sees it).. is the drill team. Well, the seniors on the drill team. They keep saying how happy they are it's over. ARE YOU KIDDING ME? What the hell.. appreciate the time you had because you don't get it back. They also don't appreciate how amazing they did and who got them there.... uuugh.
So, I left nutrition tonight and just can't stop thinking about how ridiculous society's obsession with weight is. Not a day goes by that I don't think about being skinnier and what I can do to get there and I'm not shitting you. It's terrible and I'm guessing I'm not the only one like this.. I'm among many. It's not right.. we should all feel beautiful in our skin and what God gave us. We should be able to eat whatever we want whenever we want. JUST WORK OUT. But if you're like me and read every magazine on the shelves, it makes it hard to not wanna look like those woman. They are twigs. I could break up them...and yet I wish I was skinnier all the time and I'm not even overweight. Pathetic.
I'm being really pessimistic tonight I just realized. It's all because boys are stupid and ruin my life and make me sad. I just wanna be alone and enjoy the one life I get without a freaking broken hear. I wanna be happy all the freaking time. I'm sick of being used and not appreciated for the person I am. I try to be the best person I can be.. and if you don't like it. &*$@ off and stop texting me out of the blue CAUSE YOUR BORED. Every single time you just break my heart more...happy? uuugh. I don't even think anyone is reading this but if you are thanks for letting me vent.

ok I'm going to go watch american idol and quit my bitching.

ps: I LOVE MY NEPHEW. without him, I wouldn't of smiled much lately.

peace&love

siiick!

SO, I've been sick for three days and have missed two days of classes... poop. I hope my grades don't drop........
90210 is on tonight! and american idol! yay! I love tv. I don't care if one day I'm an idiot cause I watch too much tv... :) Life is ok... Tumbleweed hasn't called me back though. I'm stressing out a little. Everything happens for a reason right?? Please.................................................
I need a life.. I mean a better one. I just wanna move away, get a job, and live life to the fullest. OMG you will never guess who just called! TUMBLEWEED! I got the job. fackin A I'm pumped! YEEESSS. I can calm down now. :)
I am so sick of this sickness... my nose freaking hurts from blowing it so much :( I need chicken noodle soupy. :)
I'm going to go. This was a dumb blog, but oh well.

PeAcE&love

My Weekend

So I went to Columbus and stayed with Dani on Thursday. We had sooo much fun. I met alot of people. It just made me realize there is so much more out there. There is a world that's SO much bigger than this place. I'm sick of wooster/mans/ashland/loudonville. I need to get as far away as I can. I'm annoyed.
Anyways.. I miss Dani/Columbus already and it's only Monday.
I came home Saturday, and went the the "boy/girl" dance. Special..

ANYWAYS- then I went down to Muskingum and stayed with Andy and his friends, and Byron. After that, shit just went down hill. But, I'm not getting into it. I need to learn not to get my freaking hope up. I just hurt myself in the long-run. Whatever. I have school all wk and no money to get there. Fascinating huh? NO. I'm freaking out. UUghh. I won't have money until like the 12th. so that's what? 10 days? yea. NEAT. So I'd like to go watch the girls dance this Friday.... we'll see how my money situation is............................................ who knows.

Alright, I'm gonna head out cause talking about this is just pissing me off more.

Peace&Love

"escape this town for a little while"

I'M LEAVING TOMORROW UNTIL SUNDAY! Freakin A I'm excited. A long awaited trip away from this area has finally arrived. Even though its only going to be as far as Columbus, it's something right? I need to get away. I'm going to stay with Dani at CCAD! I'm pumped.
Anyways, today was good. It was kind of boring because school got cancelled and it's not like I could go outside for any reason. I HATE OHIO. Get m e out of here.................
So my chemistry midterm will now be Monday.. more days to study :) (even though I probably won't).
I got a suprise check in the mail from walmart that I apparently didn't know I had, so I never went and picked it up. Money out of nowhere is ALWAYS a bonus. Fack... I'm a broke college student...but it's my own fault.
My job interview went really well, I have the "second part" tomorrow. I'm estatic to have a job, I'm not even joking! :) I know..who wants to work right? ME... because I'm broke, and I'd like to go see my best friend sooner than later and he lives in freaking Mexico. (Please God let me get this job).
I'm so sick of snow/winter. I want to get out of here or summer to come...either would be pleasant.
I'm not sure of how to use this whole "blogging thing" just yet... hopefully soon though. (e.g.- I don't know how to get other "bloggers" or "friends" added, so I can read theres............. help?
K I hAve to finish laundry and pack for my adventure. (Pray the snow stops ok? ok)


Peace and Love

Job Interview... bow chicka bow wow

Yay for me! I FINALLY, after weeks of being poor, have a job interview. cha-ching. It's at two, and its 12:30 and I haven't even showered yet. I have too much DUMB SHIT on my mind. Freakin a. Anyways.............I just wanted to throw this up.. more to come tonight after my THREE HOUR long nutrition class that does nothing but make me feel "over weight" and "unhealthy".............ugh.

PEACE!

Starting over...

I've tried this blogging thing before (ha, Aimee).. but gave up. I think I might do it for real now. Chances are good I'll have one fan.... but oh well.
Much has changed. My five year relationship failed.. so times are rough. My heart hurts as lame as it sounds, but it's true. "The first cut is the deepest".... I guess. I'm so confused. I though I'd marry him. Let's hope for the best. I've learned alot for it though. That I can be "okay" on my own. I don't need to rely on anyone and I was for way too long. I learned that family and friends are everything.. I'd be lost without them and all the support they have given me. He was everything to be.. but I don't "need" him like I thought. I'm gonig to be ok.. it's going to hurt, but sooner or later it will just be a fond memory...........I hope.
Anyways- started school and its going okay. I have a midterm in chemistry on Wednesday. That should be a blast, not. I'm going to have to study for 82570197 hours in order to do good. Ugh. I am switching my major from pediatrics to business management. I hate science...any science, so the medical field isn't for me... unfortunately. Oh well.
I miss being 10...when nothing mattered. I miss being care free.